The Silent Retreat
Everyone balked at the silence part. I insisted that was the best part and it was. I can be a chatty chatter. Sometimes though, its just nice to shut the fuck up. And small talk? ug. Small talk with new age hippies? The worst. So silence never bothered me. What was painful was being without entertainment. I am a slave to my phone. Facebook, Insta, various games, Duo Lingo, the news, the weather, zillow. I need constant distraction! I wanted to be all in for this retreat tho. I left my phone alone. I had a book. There were some short hiking trails. I built a fire. Still the boredom was heavy. I craved a movie. I was so bored I went to each and every "class". I was expecting exercise like yoga. I didn't know what breema was exactly, but it sounded like movement. Mostly it was all meditation. I did a lot of looking inward and it t...